Journal

March 17, 2023

“The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.”

H. P. Lovecraft

Saturn’s entrance into Pisces, my sixth house, has meant a retreat for me.

I was surprised at how strongly it manifested in my life. A few days before, and most strongly on the day Saturn changed signs, I experienced a sudden rush of energy. I recorded three videos in a short time, one of which I didn’t even plan to do. It felt like the end spurt of a long race. And then – the heaviness, the pullback.

I didn’t expect this. But here I am, in timeout, rethinking how I am going to use my resources in the future.

I’ve been very active on Instagram since October 2021, which has been my main social media channel since then. IG is a wonderful place for getting information out in a concise form and connecting with people. I love that the visual aspect is primary on IG. It fits well with how my brain works. I see landscapes in my mind, and usually, I search for a picture expressing what I’m going to write about first when I’m working on a new blog post. IG is also a much calmer place than Facebook, for instance.

Introducing people to the Venus cycle and the five-pointed star pattern it creates, and the meaning behind all of it is my main goal for being on IG. I’ve spent much time creating posts. Collecting the astrological data, creating the visuals, and writing the text for my monthly Venus cycle previews are one of the most time-consuming things I’ve done in the past year. It’s exactly an entire year now that I’ve done these monthly previews.

I’m more and more wondering how much people understand what I’m writing about. I’ve always struggled with selecting the bits of information I can fit into a 2200-signs post. It bothers me that the Venus cycle previews can never be unique to the reader. They can only provide a general picture of the astrological landscape, which can be very different from what is going on in each individual’s life.

Do people understand this – that there is a difference between general astrology and the quality of time mirrored through the current location of the planets in the sky and the personal life cycles of each individual?

Also, it seems my posts on IG don’t reach people anymore.

So, what am I going to do with my precious time? How can I achieve a balance between what I give and what I receive? How can I make sure to have enough space to work on myself, cherish my relationship with the Divine, and grow while helping others on their path?

I do have an idea already about where I will put my focus in the future.